Am I the only one?

I am a fruit snob, and I must know, am I the only one?

Let me explain. I loooove fruit. absolutely adore it. But I am really picky about how I will eat fruit. Take grapes for example. I only buy bags where the grapes are small and really dark in color. They taste sweeter to me. Then, I get them home, rinse them through the bag the came in. Normal, right? THEN, I get my own ziploc bag, pull out the vine bunches and put them in the new bag. I do not, transfer the little grapes at the bottom of the store bag. To me those are bad. I don't eat them. Snobby?

And strawberries. I only buy big juicy red ones, preferably from Costco. I inspect the whole box, if I see one that is bruised or bad, I find a new box. I get them home, and rinse them. Normal, right? THEN, I cut the tops off them all, and by tops I mean starting where strawberries turn white, then I put them in a bowl with a lid. Snobby?

I really could go on. Like bananas, I wont eat the top or bottom. Apples have to be cored and sliced, like really cored not just cutting the trunk out. so I usually only buy pre-sliced apples cause I am too lazy to do that. 

Snobby?

Is it just me???? 

lovely

Today was a good day. 

for very simple reasons.

Henry makes me smile, and have joy

he has pure joy

from goldfish crackers, Superwhy, being outside, his blanket, his dad, and much more

he is such an example to me of always having joy

my joyful moment today came during nap time

I turned off his lights, wrapped him in his blanket, fed him, and started singing to him like I always do

but this time I took time to notice him

he loves cuddling with me

he doesnt fight naps at all

he loves that time with me

I know he does because sometimes he will turn up at me and say,"bob bob bob bah bo bob" which is Henry language for I'm happy. 

I smile, and continue singing to him as he is staring right at me, and smiling. 

I love these moments as a mom

Now when he woke up from said nap and puked,

that I don't love so much. 

blah blah blah

This post is a whole bunch of random. 

I have been sick all week with a cold. When I get sick, I am out like trout. I fall hard. I feel like I am dying. 

Its quite pathetic actually. 

So far there are no signs that Henry has gotten it, which would be a total shocker and a welcomed surprise. 

Speaking of Henry, he has discovered that he looooves the show Superwhy!. We watch it about 4 times a day. A part of me feels like a lame mom for letting him watch so much tv, but there is nothing to do in the winter with a baby, and his toys are only fun for so long. I can't wait for summer, to go on walks, play at the park, get a swing set in the backyard. ah. I am beginning to realize how much of a summer girl I really am. 

My small and simple things goal is totally working, and I love it. I have had that mantra in mind all month and it is totally helping to keep my house under control, a little bit at a time. 

The pregnancy is going fine, still having trouble eating and drinking enough. I haven't gained any weight, which is good for me. We should find out the gender at the end of February. 

I can not get enough sleep these days, and I am sure Jason feels like a widower when he comes home. Shortly after Henry goes to bed, which is around 7, I go to bed, too. But I just can't help it! I am still so tired! Henry slept through the night for about two months, but now he is feeding again in the middle of the night. grrrr. Its the weekend so maybe with Jason's help we will work on dropping the feeding. 

I started reading the parenting book Love and Logic, and I looooove it. I love it most because it tells me how to instill my parenting skills with Henry NOW. They say babies are never too young to learn logic, even if they can't communicate. Its a very flexible adaptable style of parenting, while being structured at the same time. It seems like it is very time consuming to act out the plan, but in the long run should save time on tantrums and other issues. We shall see. 

Anyway, Superwhy is over, guess that's my que. 

Do you play wordfued? won't you play with me?

he thinks I am awesome

Henry has become a needy momma's boy. 

I posted a status a while ago asking my friends how to resolve this issue and I was surprised to learn that most of my friends dont care if their care are needy of their moms, which IS TOTALLY OK. I am not judging.

Just saying, I am soooo not that kind of personality. 

I can't have him be so needy of me all the time to the point that I get stressed thinking about leaving him with someone else. 

So, with no advice from anyone I decided to try my own ideas. 

my first try is the daycare at my gym. After a horrible experience at south davis rec and their daycare, I switched gyms to Skills Fitness and so far I kinda love it. Their daycare is much nicer, less kids there, and the employees are young female adults compared to moms. I know what you are thinking, wouldnt I want moms in there working instead? Thats what I thought, but the rec center had moms as the employees and I realized that moms are really good at ignoring kids, and not taking crying very seriously. Young single women still think kids are adorable and enjoy playing with them. 

So we have gone twice, the first time was fabulous and he loved it, the second time he was crying after 30 mins, BUT he hadnt had an afternoon nap, so I will chalk that up to tiredness and crankiness. 

But so far its good, the daycare has big windows that you can see in if you are in the gym, but the people inside the daycare cant see you. So I can check on Henry whenever I was without him seeing me, and I can see if I like the employees and how they do with Henry and the other kids. 

Its good, Henry seems to like watching the big kids play, and its getting him used to me not being around. 

Last night I also went to a body pump class at the gym, and left Henry with Jason and Jason put him to bed, which I think was also good for Henry not to rely on me  in order to go to sleep at night. 

so I am trying. 

I refuse to let the neediness continue, especially since baby #2 will be here before you know it and I can't devote every minute to Henry. 

Wish me luck!

blerg

I have no motivation to blog. 

sorry. 

blah. 

maybe its the lack of others blogging, or the lack of communication taking place these days via blogs, but blogging just doesnt seem like it used it. 

maybe we are all stuck on Pinterest. 

either way. 

I am good. 

Henrys good

Babys good

Jasons good.

the end. 

Official

My goal for this year is a mindset. 

By small and simple things. 

I get so frustrated and depressed if I cant completely deep clean my house as often as I used to. I used to spend around 2-3 hours just cleaning. clearly, I dont have that kind of time, and it upsets me. 

but I had a moment the other day where I really took to heart the phrase by small and simple things. 

Maybe I cant clean the entire kitchen in one shot, but I can at least do the dishes. or throw the garbage away. 

then the next time I have a moment I can do more small things, and hopefully accomplish something large. 

Its worked really well so far. 

and today when I was cleaning I was in the groove, so it made me extra motivated to make it possible for me to clean more, so I cleaned my room, Henry's room and the hallway, and trapped him in between so he could crawl back and forth, and he loved it. I was able to hang clothes up, clean off surfaces, etc. Way more than I would have been able to do. 

So yeah. 

Thats my goal. 

Gotta write goals down, ya know.