GRR!!

I have a lot of emotions right now. I am angry, excited, scared, paranoid, happy, anxious, annoyed, nervous, impatient, violated and just plan tired. I love buying a home, its my home, its our problem if something breaks, its my place to feel safe and secure, I can do WHATEVER I want to it! But the whole process is somewhat stressful. To add to the axiousness to get out, my car got broken into AGAIN. All they took was the stereo, my car alarm was even on. I hate our apartment complex and I plain just hate being in an apartment. I share a building with 11 other units, and a complex with 566 units! that is just too many different types of people all shoved together for my liking. The other day we came home from my parents and there was a pit bull loose running like mad and growling! I just hate it. Anytime we go to the house and drive around or go inside it just feels so peaceful and right. Its my own space where I dont have to worry about people stomping up and down the steps, people breaking into my car, whether or not there is an open treadmill at the gym blah blah blah. Also I HATE my ward. If we moved today and switched wards, no one would even know we left. Our ward includes tons of apartments and duplexes so people are constantly moving out, there is no sense of bonding or unity, unless its the old 50 year old women and I dont wanna be their friends anyway! They havent given us a calling, they havent even asked us to speak! we have been there for 6 months! And its not for lack of trying, I make an effort I promise, there is one couple that we talk to when we go and everyone else is just kinda there. There are ALOT of awkward people. old single people who never got married and just became weird, and just plain weird people. I hate it. the area we are hopefully moving to is SO much better you can just tell. It is such a QUIET area too. there are no shopping centers, no grocery stores, no nothing that would bring traffic other then those that live there. But dont get me wrong, all that stuff is just 10 mins away. I found a loophole in our apartment lease that is going to get us out of our lease without paying anything, BUT when I bring that up with the apartment place, they are going to make us leave right then. So we will be in limbo til we close on our house which could take up to a month. oh well because I hate our apartment complex!
Now for some way exciting news! Jason and I are getting a kitten!!! that is as soon as I can find one! they are hard to find right now! But as soon as we get into our house, and I can find one, its a kitten for us! We don't want kids yet, but we want something! I have looked on KSL, craigslist, utahpets.com and I cant find one thats not black! grrrsh. I want a multi colored one preferrably orange. :-)